tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5682738581019360100.post6202057684208918567..comments2024-03-16T10:33:57.915-04:00Comments on cafe selavy: Toughcafe selavyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15326753057795689263noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5682738581019360100.post-9418066211912034742021-06-28T20:03:21.896-04:002021-06-28T20:03:21.896-04:00First... I hope Ma isn't suffering too much. ...<br /><br />First... I hope Ma isn't suffering too much. Poor thing. Make sure she is eating some fiber - those opioids can truly bind you up. <br /><br />And of course, I think about U, too, Good Son. I pray for you both - in my own way - every night. <br /><br />Well. I had a shit Monday but in light of real shit going on in the world - I really shouldn't complain - so I won't. <br /><br />You know - your story about the kids asking if you were Peter's father - and your response - reminded me of Bill Murray in "Broken Flowers." <br /><br />It was really humid here today. The AC in my car needs re-charging. The AC at one office is broke and the ac at the other office spits out tepid air. The traffic is bad -- Fourth of July week. (<br />Reporting not Complainging -- really ) W<br /><br />hen I got home - I decided to put on my suit and do laps in the Sound instead of jumping rope or walking. I popped in to see Ma first and told her what I was doing. "Please don't drown!." <br /><br /><br />I've been swimming in the ocean since I'm an infant (well with my Pop holding me) but by 3 - I had to keep up with the older cousins - diving into and riding the waves. There are some great home movies of it all,, somew<br />here - (So my keyboard fis ucks up if I go back to add a word or edit -- wtf). Anyway. <br /> SI realize she is afraid of something happening to me. And what that would mean for her . I<br /><br />Sorry<br /> this is a mess -- keyboard issues. <br /><br />'twas a good idea. It was windy but the water wasn't too cold. Maybe 65. I swam for 45 minutes and hauled out into a sandstorm. Natures exfoliation. <br /><br />The Sea is Therapy. <br /><br />The dogs aren't happy but -- sometimes I gotta put myself first. Even though the guilt is real. <br /><br />Watched "Disfarmer." Please steal it. Stop stepping on your balls. Get yourself some support (your art dealer supports the project) - and set up shop. <br /><br />Please? <br /><br />Well. That's what I think. <br /><br />"There was the first move in a maverick career that embraced both obscurity and a rigorous aesthetic."<br /><br />You kinda like obscurity an have a rigorous aesthetic. Just sayin. <br /><br /><br />It's time to take a cold outdoor shower - t ready for bed. <br /><br /><br />I'm sorry this is such a mess. jThe letters keep jumping all around. :( <br /><br /><br />M<br /><br /><br />I'm sure you looked just fine meeting your Waitress - don't cut yourself down . Besides - it's what is inside that matters most. Yes, of course, look Good but that doesn't m<br />ean you have to be Brad Pitt ,ya know<br /><br />Take care of yU. Wow. it's a mess. I wonder if I need a new computer. <br /><br /><br />x<br />ours fLisa Nickersonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02748824411772434531noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5682738581019360100.post-4481984831777588692021-06-27T09:14:13.991-04:002021-06-27T09:14:13.991-04:00I think I had just texted you that my own Mother w...<br /><br />I think I had just texted you that my own Mother was pissing me off shortly before This Event occurred. <br /><br />Boy, did I feel bad. <br /><br />My own mother was being incredibly - well - she says things that are mean - said to make me feel guilty about living, I think because she says she doesn't want to anymore. I try to have patience - and I do but sometimes ........ <br /><br />Anyway. I'm really sorry for your Ma's fall and subsequent pain. And also know that you, too- will be facing your own challenges over the next weeks. You are a Good Son, Batman. <br /><br />Make sure to activate the Church Chain! I'm sure there will be people looking to help in any way they can. You'll need some relief - and I don't say that in a way that means to insult your Mom - but you will. For your own sanity and self care. <br /><br />There I go. Preaching. I'm sorry. <br /><br />Perhaps because it is my own worst nightmare. <br /><br />Finding my mother - fallen, twisted, broken and bleeding. I've had the nightmares and daymares. <br /><br />I will be the one to find her in the end. Inevitable. I'm the only one here. The other day she told me she walked to my house and went down in the cellar - I have had nightmares of finding her at the bottom of those very stairs. <br /><br />Ok. Enough, Lisa. <br /><br />You know I'll be sending positive, healing, patience and strength energies South, for both of you. Wish I could to more - feed that cat - help. That's what friends do for each other. <br /><br />You guys will make it. You are both Tough. There's no choice. <br /><br /><br /><br />I went to see Charlotte last night. We danced to KC & the Sunshine band. She loved "Shake your Booty." <br /><br />The weather here is humid - very. I'm not a huge a/c fan so the house is "moist." The dogs lazy. I'm finally cleaning up shit I haven't touched since LockDown. <br /><br />I did a stupid thing and started a Jeffrey Epstein series on Netflix. I don't really want to talk about how it has permeated my brain. <br /><br />I heard something from one of the Girl Recruiters that I can't shake. Nothing about what she and Epstein "did" but an event that moved her life toward Epstein at 13 or 14. I don't want to watch anymore of it -- perhaps I'll try a Romcom. <br /><br />I'm going to cook for Ma tonight. I'm considering yogurt marinated chicken thighs and a cold sesame noodle salad. <br /><br />Our forecast is for a difficult weather week. If the sun comes out today - it will be like living inside a terrarium. <br /><br />I liked your mushroom. I like them. I had a strange feeling recently - slicing up a big portabello -- flipping it over and looking at all those gills. (maybe I reported that already). I've been told they - mushrooms - are not aerobic. <br /><br />I once came upon a purple slimy one emerging from the forest floor -- it was throbbing. <br /><br />I wasn't high. <br /><br />U. x<br /> Lisa Nickersonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02748824411772434531noreply@blogger.com