Lackadaisical Posting

Originally Posted Wednesday, June 12, 2013

I pulled my first prints today.  They are all fucked up, but they are cool 'cause they are mine.  I can "do"the process.  Now I have to "do" it better.  Tomorrow.  We can always be better tomorrow. 

But I am in a class with very accomplished people, and it is humbling.  Humbling is what most of us need.  The others, the accomplished ones, have fucked up, too, but they are cool about it.  I am learning that if nothing else--to be cool about my failures. 

Although I can't be cool about my failure to take any good photographs on this trip.  Since I've started the workshop, I have taken none.  I am tired at night.  It makes me feel old, but I don't want to go out after a day in the studio.  I want dinner and a shower and then nothing. 

So this photo is what you get.  It is a snapshot anyone walking by this girl could have taken.  There is nothing special about it.  It is all I have. 

Because I am in the workshop all day, too, I have no stories to tell.  I have not been out among "the people."  I have a few days after the workshop before I fly home, though I have thought about going home right after as I didn't leave myself enough days to do what I intended.  I was being miserly.  But I won't make a decision until tomorrow.  After that, it will be too late. 

So. . . it is not just the photograph in this post that is lackadaisical.  But I am tired and want one last drink and then to bed.  Goodnight. . . goodnight. . . . .