I wrote a really horrible post last night that I can't post today. It is far too angry. Dangerously so. My anger and anxiety have me by the throat now. The bathroom is a horror show and Mr. Fixit is tired. He did not expect to do all this. My hands shake. My whole body trembles. I have multiple medical appointments spread out over the next month. All in all, I'd have to say that things are not good. I cannot be clever about any of it.