I was correct, of course. Everything has changed. Models don't show, no one responds to messages. . . and suddenly with the onslaught of Spring, I am alone. It is an old story and I am plenty used to it, but oh, I had thoughts, I had plans. Whatever they were. . . .
I have friends, of course, and they send me torturous things to torment me (though none of them, I think, means ill). Here was a message from one of them last night. Dorothy Parker. I feel a kindred spirit with her. She was a wonderful mess of a woman, I imagine, so much the disappointed romantic, though I don't really know much about her beyond "Dorothy Parker and her Vicious Circle." I remember it as a wonderful movie.
This level reach of blue is not my sea; Here are sweet waters, pretty in the sun, Whose quiet ripples meet obediently A marked and measured line, one after one. This is no sea of mine that humbly laves Untroubled sands, spread glittering and warm. I have a need of wilder, crueler waves; They sicken of the calm, who knew the storm. So let a love beat over me again, Loosing its million desperate breakers wide; Sudden and terrible to rise and wane; Roaring the heavens apart; a reckless tide That casts upon the heart, as it recedes, Splinters and spars and dripping, salty weeds.