Saturday, May 27, 2017
Did I Mention Scanning?
I get this romantic obsession with film. Then I shoot it. Then I process it or get it processed. And then. . . .
I picked up some film I dropped off the other day. I was looking forward to it. Three rolls. Everything on them sucked. Nothing. Nada. It cost money and time to do that.
Yesterday, I got out a camera I had made for me back just before they announced they would stop making Polaroid instant film. Cost me over $1,000 to have an old Polaroid 110 camera modified to take the 4x5 film back. Sent it to a guy in Australia. Took months.
I never shot with it.
So, I wanted to see if the camera is worth anything. I shot some black and white film around the yard. Then I had to get out the big changing tent and find the chemicals I needed to develop it. Working in the kitchen, not a studio, everything was cramped.
The negatives looked good except for a mistake I made. You might see tomorrow.
Then I shot some more film and used the New55 R5 monobath developer. It didn't work. . . again. I have tried to use that company's products over and over, but I finally have to admit that they are no good. That company, to which I gave kickstarter money, has failed to come up with anything usable.
I did the same with the Impossible Project years ago before I gave up.
I will shoot some more film today, but I keep wondering why. Why? I should sell every film camera I have and buy the new Fuji GFX medium format digital camera.
I have been having work on the house. I am trying everything I can to make it right, but I don't know. Everything I do seems to be a mistake. I am getting very close to the future and it is looking disastrous. The past seems so good and so far away.
Up at 5:00. Drinking coffee and doing laundry while it is cool. Can't sleep. I am realizing that is a summer thing. But I am tired. Man, I am tired.